My life is characterised by a lack of discipline
My earliest memory of this as a kid is being a little bit chubby because I couldn’t resist sweet and fatty food, despite not knowing this wasn’t good for me.
Why are some kids not able to resist the enormous temptation, but other kids can? Do the kids who can resist just have less internal pain that they’re not always looking for something to soothe themselves?
Regardless, I started going to the gym at about 16 and eventually put on some muscle and lost some fat so I didn’t become overweight – however body dysmorphia stayed with me.
Once I turned 18, this was the start of the real spiral of my life. Turning 18 gave me access to two massive vices which would completely change the direction of my life – alcohol and gambling.
Over the next 7 years, I would binge drink a couple times a week, and I would spend most of my time alone gambling. Any guesses as to how this played out for me?
A mountain of debt, some brutally tough times when I ran out of money, and it started to fracture relationships with my family.
What would my life look like at 25 if I spent those 7 years trying to serve people, help people, and building businesses that did this?
So I spent 7 years doing that, and putting myself way behind my peer group. Over the last 6 years, I got a grasp on my problems, however because I was in so much debt, I never really managed to move forward financially.
The last 3 years I have been self-employed and there have been some good months and some bad months. However overall, I’ve fallen behind in taxes, and therefore accumulated more debt.
Last month I took out a $20k business loan to keep me going and I’ve chewed through about $13k of this with various and bills, and trying to keep going without much coming in.
If I could pinpoint the main reason why my business hasn’t grown as I would’ve liked, I would point to one word – Discipline.
I haven’t been consistent enough with my thoughts, beliefs and actions which would lead me to growing a strong business. I’ve had some really good days, but I’ve had a lot of days where I’ve slacked off or made excuses.
So today is day one of a new 180 day journey where I commit to a new journey of discipline. My number one goal for the next 180 days is to average 10 productive hours per day (including weekends). I will track my time, and at the end of the day I will record my average. This must stay above 10 – there are no excuses.
I can have days off, but it just means I’ll need to put in a few more hours the days before, and then also be smarter with my time so I’m delivering pockets of work where possible.
Goals for today:
- 10 Productive Hours
- Under 5 emails in my inbox
- Develop the plan to generate $30k revenue in August (28 days remaining)